A bit more...

Okay so I work in fast food as a manager more or less. I run the kitchen and deal with teenagers all night long. Very fun.

I'm 26 going on 27. I get paid next to nothing so I still live with family. And I'm bad with money and time management. So yeah.

But I am not too upset over all this as I've come to realize (if a bit late) that if I just put in effort in changing my habits one day I'll be able to live a better life.

I am a writer. I am a story teller. I have whole worlds and lives floating around in my head. The trick is getting myself to sit and actually do the writing. Which I'm glad to say I've finally managed the last couple months. I actually ran a pen dry for the first time just from working on one thing last night. I bought it new after starting my story. So there's that.

I've got a while to go and hopefully I'll find time to post a next part on Dark's Entrails. God knows its been a long time coming. Lol

I've also got a number of things to work on with myself so I'm hoping this blog will be filled with many more milestones in my life.

Wow...

Gawd....It's been a few years. And I left on a rather depressing note.

Okay so. No one is reading this I'm sure. But I rediscovered my blog so fuck it.

SO depression...yup I had it. And I'm coming out of another episode. Actually Im mostly out. Been off meds over a year. YAY ME!

Um...Twilight... lol gawd I was a dip of a kid....we lost touch for bout 5-6 years not long after this. lol BUT! good news we've found each other again. Not married xD

We are together again and I'm trying to work on learning to save so I can go out and see her asap. lol

Gawd, its been a long time. I've no idea what else to talk about, so I'll get back to this later. Hopefully a lot sooner than last time xD

Another Life in the Day of Dark The Wolf/Cat

Unusual topic name aint it? eh but its not really a hint to anything. It just sounded right in my mouth as I thought what to write.

So second real blog...hmm. tonight is just a bit of rambles no real topic.

Okay so today's been good I guess.

So I was thinking and reading earlier and I felt like a huge hole was inside me and it hurt really badly, I wanted to die and cry.

Well I wasnt planning to type anything about this tonight but fact is a few days ago I realized through self searching and reading on the subject, that I've been depressed for a long time...im not even sure if I actually got completely out of it last time it happened and well either way I am now.

I'm not down and hurting all the time...but simply I've lost most of my will to do much of anything that interests me anymore, let alone those things that dont. I'm jobless and while I would like to go back to school again I've done nearly no searching....So just yeah.

As well I've had feelings and thoughts of hurting and killing myself. Of course I've the experanice and promises in my life to combat these thoughts and emotions, but its still rather disturbing and it makes things worse in truth. Idk I guess I'm blogging this now simply because I wanted to make sure I dont let this blog die and plus itll serve as a way to put this all out there for my friends to know whats going on and yet I know only a couple will see it and thus I feel safe and less ashamed of myself.

Now i know there's nothing to be ashamed about and its simply because I am depressed but i've taken pride in working on myself by myself, but I know this is the source of my cown fall.
I guess it just helps to type about this.....I hope those who know me will be supportive, even though I truly dont want them to actually try to help me....Im aware this will make things worse for me and its simply my pride and depression that make me refuse to want help.

Promises to keep typing this crap till I'm booted off the interwebs,

Dark

Okay so...

The first thing that I've decided I want to rant about is this.

Marriage...now before you think this is about gays shut up. xD Okay that was mean, but its not a gay or not gay marriage type of post and I dont really mean anything insulting when I say shut up. lol

So here's the topic,

When are two people actually married?

There are a large number of people out there who, while not the majority, never actually get married, but are seen as legally married in a way. So when are two people married? Is it when they say I do, after years and years of being together, after having a judge tell them they are, after signing the papers?
Or rather is it once the two have decided mentally and emotionally to commit and consider themselves as married?

I mean if two people who love each other end up some where in the world where no one else is there to witness an actual marriage are they still married if they choose to say they are?

And if so does that mean a couple can be married in a sense over the internet with out ever having met yet?

Well I'll let you guys decide what is true for your lives, but as for mine...

Twilight and myself were married virtually on March 12th 2009. lol

Of course you cant legally get married online, but we consider ourselves married and are greatly looking forward to meeting asap. lol

Well that was a slightly heavier topic than I like to start off on, but I just felt like it was a good one.

Blogging till they kick me from the interwebs,
Dark

P.S.

virtualvow.com its cute and sweet if any of you decide you want to do the same.

A little introduction...I guess -shrug-

Well I'm brand new to the site and hope it grows on me. I havent ever really had a blog site that really kept my attention well enough to get constant blogs.....or even remembered xD.

So a bit about myself.

Well my account name is Darksithoverlord, which has nothing to do with star wars. Maybe I'll explain some time. I'm 19 going on 20 this septmber, yay me. I'm in love with a gal I've known over the net for a few years.

I like to write, though I hardly finish a single thing I start. My mind never stops working and I love creativity. I have ADHD, no I dont take meds and yes it can be a bitch at times. Always for getting things.

I love the internet and video games, though I enjoy being out doors and biking or hanging with friends. Oh and I forgot to mention before, You can type my whole name out if you want but I do prefer just Dark as it is a handle I'm quite use to and it has even crossed into my real life a bit.

lol which totally reminds me of my gal's handle... Twilight. Yes hers is because of the book. And no you guys will prolly never see a pic of her or me on her.....I think.. Idk I never know what the future holds so I dont make promises unless I feel I can truly keep it.

So I've rambled a while on who I am, so if y'all are nosy ask questions. I'm totally interested in chatting with people.